I didn't get the break I wanted from work but I will still try to deal with my reality issues even a little.
I'm still tired and getting tireda by the minute...suh it guh though.....I've got a lot to report but I can't find the words yet.......what I will say is that Boogie turned out to be unworthy of the pet name......he didn't believe in me enough....he didn't trust me to move beyond this distraction.......he didn't have enough faith in our love.....he doesn't love me anymore......its tough to think about, he made me into a woman...of sorts.....its hard to accept that he won't be a part of my life in that way anymore......we survived his wife and my first love, we survived more thin times than should have been permissible.....and now there's nothing.....how can there be nothing?
A part of me wants to run to him and ask the usual whys and hows and wrap myself in his arms as he breaks under the memories but pride is a bitch.....I know this is what I needed to have happen....it just hurts that's all.
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That's a really unfair position. How would you expect a man whom you have cheated on repeatedly to still have unwavering trust in you. He is good some men would have left your ass and moved on to a woman who would have appreciated him. "He did not trust you to move beyond thi distraction" wake up honey, trust is like a leaf blowing off a tree, if you can catch it and sustain it, good, if you leave it and it dies..that is it. Put yourself in his shoe, it must be hard on him.
You spend this time on this man/distraction who doesn;t love you like your man, that;s balantant disrespect and you wonder why your relationship is not peachy keen. Grow!!!!
Believe me, you need a sitdown. Emotions are hard, see the world through some one else's eyes or go be alone or with some punk who u can walk over or plain flat be a whore..it seems you are well on your way.
Who said anything about getting paid? I don't mean it in the context of being a prostitute, I was referring to the defintion of "sexually promiscuous". As for the men, I dish it to them when they deserve it
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