I and I Reasonings

A blogging buddy had asked whether I was sure that I really wanted this man, or was it that my ego was bruised from the fact that I had encountered a man who was immune to me and therefore needed to prove myself. At the time I was in "Angry La La land" so coherent thought was not possible so I responded as truthfully as I could on the issues of ego, love and revenge.

I thought then that there were times when I felt I was in love with him but there were times when I knew I wasn't, I knew my ego was hurt and I did feel the need to redeem myself but I had hoped that it was not only about conquering Mohammed's mountain. Sadly however, while I still have strong feelings that sometimes totally engulf me when it comes to him, I am almost resigned to believe that having sampled the offering in a fulsome manner he holds little interest for me.......would I do it again? Yes.....but there is no burning need, as had been present before, to seize the being and ravage his person.....in essence then, I can wait.

I see no reason to lie to myself so for now I will continue to believe that I have finally learnt the patience lesson....and that this is the only thing operating at this time....he finally broke me....right????