Aaaaahhhhhhh

Good judgement prevailed, I channelled my energy into building the briefs assigned me in more ways than one. At the end of the day my 20 page brief was all but completed, I solved interpersonal and systemic problem inherent to the work space, but still I was not sated......my desire mounted and mounted the more I tried to deny myself and by the end of the day I was spent...exhausted from all the thinking I had done.

I took a drive to visit my Daddy....usually I could do this drive in 20 mins but I needed to cast out my demons so I drove at grandma pace and chastised myself all the way for feeling the way I did.....after 2 hrs of chat and dinner and chatting some more, I said goodbye. Its amazing, when I was growing up I can't remember my father speaking to me outside of punishment, general verbal abuse or articulating how he wanted things done, but now with age, he is more concerned with mellowing in the moment and revelling in the company...he talks...a lot. Anyway, I did the drive back feeling a little better but knowing that I was too bushed to think much more....Woohoo.

At home I had a shower and a glass of wine before settling into bed for the night. My boogie called and came over and we exorcised our demons to the point of weakness....thank God, I remember thinking, thank God for this release......I had forgotten the mutual benefits that could be derived from using one man to set the mood for another...it was great and well needed. I slept well.