Ramblings 9

I suspect that my next couple of posts will be of the "love sick...er" variety, so if you've just eaten you may wish to choose some other form of entertainment.

I realised today that I have not had a decent hug since the beginning of the year. I've gotten a few, but none from the men I want...I guess. How do single people do this?....What's sweeter than having the person who you share an intimate relationship with hold you in is arms, cradle your head in his chest, squeeze you until you exhale......what's greater than that?

As I sit here sapped of energy, fighting like hell not to fall and make contact....again.....I realise that I'm always the one falling first, seems he should want me enough to fall too......of course this action is actually dependent on him caring and wanting to, and I should know by now that he doesn't care or want to.

With this settled I suspect I will have a few more posts like this, as I resolve to do everything in my power not to think about him.......not to think about; my new found freedom and the opprtunityI now have for guiltfree exploration of what the world has to offer; my DAMN celibacy ( a month and a week gone) and how much I feel like @!%&ing.

I'll send these thoughts to this blog and hope that it provides some relief through this heartfilled and impatient period.

I remember always, that "If a Man Wants a Woman, NOTHING can Keep Him Away".