Victory???

Why is it that when you seek to do the right thing, that's when all the temptation in the world comes to visit and stay a while with you?

In an attempt to reorganize and cast myself in a mould that is distinctly divorced from that which I have been committed to over the past few months, I ordered my steps and turned my back on the forbidden fruit I wished......with all my might......to be resident in my garden. I bobbed and weaved my way out of meetings...even took a day from work to escape being across the table from this man, but alas like an ant to work it was inevitable that our paths would cross.

I don't know if Venus was in alignment with Saturn but all my attempts to avoid star crossings were rebuffed by impish meddlings and I was left like a lamb to the slaughter in the quasi...thank God....company of the source of my distress and he was in true form.

To excuse myself would have been too obvious, we all have to eat....I was told.....and as I watched the query on my boss' face I knew I was stuck. So again I sat trapped by his eyes, which I could feel pattern my every move, he was playing that game....the game that we played in better times only this time I knew the stakes were higher so I ignored the openings provided me. A moment of rescue came when my cell phone rang and I excused myself to answer.....yes I could feel his eyes on my ass as I rose from the table....but I was glad, it was my Boo. "Hey boogie", I greeted him while still in ear shot of the table, hoping it had had the desired effect.

Throughout the meal I was taken with the man's dexterity with a knife and fork and in a careless moment I was thrown back to a time when those hands played all too knowingly over my body. I caught myself and recoiled into my comfortable anti social self and at that moment I realized that he was intent on playing the fool and fooling with me so I reverted to a playful self and we went to town with subtle innuendos and looks of lust while my boss wasn't looking and I felt vindicated when he was invited to stroll to the desert table and could not disguise his obvious stimulation.

While that was fun I didn't wish to traverse these waters too much for fear that I would get too caught up, so I changed yet again to a business focus which, thankfully, grounded all parties and we got some work done.

Not being the type to not exploit a situation, as we walked to our cars he extended his hand for a platonic goodbye and I ceased the moment, stepped into him on my tip toe and whispered in his ear "now we both know you know me better than that"....... and as my tongue brushed against his ear lobe and my hands slid around his waist and my fingers moved down his back in a blatant embrace I felt him shiver and I released the moment with deep satisfaction that it was still there....somewhere.

As I drove home I watched as my cell phone vibrated on the seat next to me with an all too familiar number on the display......I did not answer.