Ramblings 7

I realized on the weekend that vices don't get rid of the pain.

I was captive to all my vices on the rainy weekend....fucking, smoking, drinking and flying off the handle..... they all only served to dull the pain enough for minimal relief......ultimately, as you drift back down from your climax, your demons stand face to face with you.... still yet unsolved.

You then have a choice, you can either light up, drink up or change to a 'backshot' position, to connect the feelings of euphoria, so that you have sustained "happiness" for a while, or you can throw away the crutch and lucidly deal with the problem. I opted for the former. Today, though, I will be a big girl and deal.