Ramblings 6

I made it through last week...it was rough and with that near miss on Friday I am not too confident that this week will go any smoother. My trepidation grows each time there's a knock at my door, even though I know he wouldn't resort to the same tactic twice. I can't believe that I am this much of a wuss over this thing...thought I was one of those confident sexual beings that could deal in any pool.....I was wrong, life has given me lemons and I can't find my recipe for lemonade.

I am committed again this week to fighting all the forces of evil that are conspiring to f--k me up in this matter. Time alone will tell....now I know what Brian McNight was trying to capture in that song "...its been 6 months , 8 days, 12 hours .....I miss you so much and I don't know what to say. I should be over you, I should know better, but its just not the case......" Song writers, gotta luv em.

It's been 6 days, but I wish it were 6 months cause then I would be closer to letting it all go. Its been a busy day so far, not much time for indulgence.....he is never too far from my mind though...this I don't mind, cause ongle mi one know dat time, its when I get foolish and call that I have a problem.....I do wish though that there was a switch I could employ.