Action Plan

There is an old saying, "be careful what you wish for, you may just get it"...how true.

I have determined that I am being taught a few lessons....a lesson in patience....a lesson in love....a lesson in like....and a lesson about self growth.

I am spent.... in mind, heart and soul....I need to flush this thing from my system.....I am impatient for the desired outcome and time has not been the friend it usually is to me. I also think that my forceful nature is acting against me in this matter as well.....I guess some men just prefer women who are subdued....its funny because the same men always have girlfriends who are spitfires.....I think the problem may be...and I know because I have had an experience with his wife in her Court and it was not pretty....that he needs a softy to counter the experience he is getting at home.

I am overcome...I wish I had left things as they were that faithful day in December....I wish I had left things as they were.

I need a replacement diversion....this is the only way to get over him.....I can only hope the sex is bad, because I would hate to have to go through this again. My only concern is that to proceed in this manner would mean my adding one more to the score sheet....(sigh).