Watching, Waiting, Wishing and Hoping

August 19, 2007 - 10:00 a.m.

I am not sure which is worse at this time…waiting for the impact of hurricane Dean or thoughts about picking up the pieces after. My tummy is in overdrive and I know that one way or another this thing has got to pass….quickly. My capacity to withstand its threat much more is diminishing.

Amidst reports from the weather channel that “it will slam into Jamaica” and the “damage it will wreak on the island” as they hope and pray that our mountains will slow it down sufficiently to have minimal impact on their own land, and the illtimed movies which appear on my local stations, I am at a loss for information…..the net is down so I can’t get updated through these means either…..helplessness was never a colour I wore well. Soimething needs to give.

My impatience carries over into all scenarios I admit reluctantly, but how can one sit twiddling ones thumps while waiting for a catastrophy to happen. It would seem at the very least that I should be out doing ….something to stop it.

I have prayed and prayed and I feel that it is now time to continue life as though it will not come…the impact will not be great…all this in a bid to prove my faith in the Lord that he will spare this beautiful land despite the black hearts of some of its inhabitants. I guess in all aspects of life I could be classified as a dreamer.

Anyway I continue to wait….I had a drink already and the bottle is still beckoning to me to finish the job.....while I would have hoped to pass the day with some clarity I think I may need a draw of something to take the edge off….I need to sleep maybe then when I awaken it will be all done and I would be refreshed and ready for the task of rebuilding.