Confession is Good for the Soul

May 11, 2007

One day I will thank him for doing what he did, for breaking my heart. One day I’ll let him know that he had touched me a little more than I expected or intended and probably was intuitive to nip the negative reaction in the bud before it got too crazy.

One day I will be loose in the lips enough to let him know that I had cared……a little too much maybe, despite our agreement that we would not….One day I will let him know that he had me from the first hello.

For now though, I will mask my pain in silence and pray to God that I won’t have to see him too often and for too long to stir up the memories. For now I will pick up the pieces and pretend it wasn’t me. For now, I will pray for the day when I CAN DEAL OUTSIDE OF THESE EMOTIONS.