Confusion

May 3, 2007


Its been 3 days…..3 days since I have heard from him….not a word, a look , nothing. Damn this man for affecting me so. How did this happen?


I lost track of the rules of the game ….I wasn’t supposed to have any emotional contact. But would it have been a useful endeavour without the possibility of someone getting hurt? I remind myself that this is not a situation where I can feed my feelings…I hate these feelings. It was supposed to be a simple fun thing that would wither as quickly as it was consummated.


Now I find myself pondering the challenge ahead to live up and rebuild the steel fence around my heart, pressing along like a really good saint.


The lessons of life never end.