Reasonings

Do you ever get the feeling that time and space are not on your side and in fact the only obstacle between the two is you? I have...and it is the single most unnerving feeling ever.

I stood for nothing, I felt and fell for nothing like magnet to steel. Now he watches me like a hawk and I can barley breathe but I know I am the cause. Hope springs with every heartbeat though that one day we will revert to some semblance of unconstrained trust...my being wishes it, quivers for it and knows that it can come to pass.

I cheated and am paying the price.....but I know he still loves me.....its evident in his eyes , his touch, the way his eyelids flutter close when I whisper in his ear, the tremble of his body in the afterglow we share...time, I will give him time....to process and time to feel...... with the belief that my dream will come true and in the end he will be mine still.