Realization 101

May 24, 2007


Somewhere along the line I lost focus of what was really important. I allowed my lower region to determine my fate and this was an error of consciousness. Now I stand at a crossroads, the uniqueness of which is a blazing arrow directing my path to destruction.


I surrendered my pride, this I cannot deny, but I have dusted this infatuation from my mind and am prepared to put the matter behind me. The absence of respect was all that was needed to wake me from my slumber. I was foolish, I was weak, and I am no longer. It is unfortunate that things had to come to this, but I am grateful for the life lesson.


That aside, I am renewed, I got the sample I wanted and I got the revenge I sought against his partner, so I am indeed well. The fact that I will see him from time to time is a detail that will be addressed upon approaching that bridge. I am woman, I am strong, I am proud, the distraction has ended, I mourned its loss and I know I will survive. I commit to not running away, or skulking into the night on the premise that I walked into this thing with my eyes wide open and will deal with the consequences that arise with eyes wide open.