Burning

I am still fighting the need to fuck him up.......I sent a "Hail up" message last night...just because.....and I guess I really never expected a response, but I am woman....and as such I reserve the right to change my damn mind.....he is pissing me off again.

Imagine, I put my jealousy aside, recognising that I have no hold over this man and cannot therefore ask for limitations to be put on the number of persons he uses to amuse himself....after all, we are not in a relationship.....so I tried to establish contact......it was raining and who can withstand the power of that? But he has chosen to show me how much of a 'Big Man' he is by not responding.

He told me the other day that I was "feisty"...... I was a little pissed but I guess I can't argue too much with that description....my tongue being the way it is...now I wish I could step out of my tattered shroud of professionalism and prove this by being the bitch I am, and tell him to go fuck himself...knowing of course that he could rebut with an indication of the many people he has who are willing to do the job....(hissing/sucking teeth).....Fuck it.