Truth 2

I feel like I am 16yrs old....I actually thought he would call, send a message.....something, anything today of all days........Not even a Merry Christmas. I have always taken these things too seriously......I've never been disappointed like this before......I even have guys I stopped fucking years ago, calling to wish me Merry Xmas, I don't get it......unless he really just doesn't want to have anything to do with me????.........Wow......so there will be no possibility for friendship when I am beyond the heartache part????.......How would that work....work wise I mean????(I am not accustomed to smiling with people I don't like)........WOW

I must say that I have always laughed at my female friends who tell me that they can feel through sex whether a man will hang around........I usually tell them that this is what happens when one is not accustomed to passionate sex......but I think I get it now....I am constrained to admit that I thought I felt a little more than the "just for sex" thing.....turns out I was wrong.

Ah Well......I will use this opportunity to say Merry Christmas to him nonetheless.........and to say that the game could have only been better if I were not the victim....Touche....Touche....... my white flag is flying high....I bow down to the superior being you are........I will rest now.